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Where do you want to make you final stand?…. the readers have spoken

December 31, 2017

Unexpected and surprising was what I felt when I read the first comments on my last post about my  month of not smoking. No don’t get me wrong it was a good surprise probably even a great one because it was as refreshing as a glass of ice water on a hot Texas summer day. Words written by one who follows my postings was echoed by a second reader and it was definitely a well received surprise.

The first comment came from Fred when he wrote, “Good luck on your choice of path….I know which fork I’d take. This question I ask may shock some younger folk…but this is reality….Where do you want to be when you pass (as in kick the bucket…croak….buy the farm….etc) ???” and echoed by Michael when he wrote, “Fred is right. Where do you want to make you final stand?”.

Now I have gone down this path a number of times but as the years accumulate and the body tends to weaken it becomes more ‘real’ as the years pass so revisiting it again with a view to this being the last move I will ever make tends to put an additional weight on ones shoulders. This additional pressure, at times, made me wish I was a young child so I could try and have my decision both ways, but as most adults know you can’t. I sit here typing and miss that majestic wilderness environment I lived in and yearn for the ‘last frontier’ mentality held closely by those I knew, but I now also see that this body is now more accustomed to walking/hiking on concrete that muskeg and unabashedly looks forward to a hot shower whenever I want one.

The coin now turning in my hand and my mind reveals the other side with its months of roads covered in ice and temperatures so cold that the air itself stings the skin and breathing burns ones lungs. In Texas we of course do not expect to open our front door and find a black bear there to greet us but then again in Texas one can roam the shores of nearby lakes and streams without having our blood drained by Alaska’s infamous mosquitoes. So like most things in life one must keep things in balance and not look for a perfect situation.

For those who do not believe in life after death
I leave you with these words written by William Shakespeare
in Macbeth act 5 scene 5 where he describes
what he sees life is all about

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.


*Just a note…. The comment from Michael about where do I want to make my final stand instantly had me thinking of a old Steven King book and TV program the Stand, which incidentally has a tenuous link to what we are talking about here.   *And a second note…. The quote ending this posting by Shakespeare written in the late fifteen hundreds and memorized by me almost 55 years ago pretty much sums up every person on this planets life if you do not believe in an afterlife or God, and doesn’t that in itself provide impetus for a heaven, hell and supreme being?

4 Comments leave one →
  1. Fred permalink
    December 31, 2017 5:10 pm

    Pete…I hope I didn’t mess you up!! There are a lot of places you could live between the temperature extremes of Alaska and Texas where you could live in the wilderness and still have running water and electricity!! The questions you are asking yourself are about the same I’ve been asking myself….I retire in 2 years and I’m thinking where I want to be. Where ever you end up I hope you can get back on the air so we can chat!! Live long….and prosper!!
    73…de…Fred N9TA

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  2. Jon permalink
    December 31, 2017 11:37 pm

    “The coin now turning in my hand and my mind reveals the other side…” is a profound statement there, Pete. I can picture someone in a darkened room with some light coming through a window looking at his hand as it slowly turns that decision-making coin over & over, stroking his chin in thought & reflection.
    You’re a smart guy & your decision will be the right one for you.

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  3. January 1, 2018 1:54 pm

    The grass is always greener. When I lived in South America for few years I dreamt of the solitude and WINTERS I was missing back in Canada It was day after day off 90 degree temps. Being back here and going through one of the coldest winters ( average 30 degrees below zero) in the books so far, I long to be back in South America. Though if I have my choice, my last stand will be in a much warmer climate. We all have to do what our bones need us to do.

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  4. TriciaLynn Burokas permalink
    January 1, 2018 8:26 pm

    This post is among your best posts. Your words really makes one think and feel.
    Love you, Tricia

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