Questions for God from the wilderness
Since my first blog I have endeavored to not write on the subject of God or religion, basically because I believe one’s beliefs are personal. Don’t get me wrong there have been many instances where something in our world occurred and I questioned my belief’s, but to metaphorically put it on paper for all to read well I have always thought that it is a subject best left to the individual.
So what has changed?….I have.
At this moment, while typing this, I do not know if this posting will ever see the light of day, because it is more a personal struggle of late that has me questioning my beliefs. I was brought up to give thanks when praying before asking for Gods help, but when after years of praying for exactly the same thing and not only is there no change but things get worse, sooner or later it will give one pause.
I know that the bible says, God knows what you need before your ask and that if you ask for something in his name it will be granted to you. But I also know that if one were unworthy and sinful you may be punished for your sins by being denied what you are asking for. But if you are pleading for help for others and not yourself I would think God would reach out and help.
So herein lies my confusion would a loving and just God punish or forsake the innocent for the wrongs of a sinful man? I guess this question, that to me has no earthly answer, will continue to test my faith. But then again I wonder if my questioning Gods existence is indeed his purpose. Because at present I am examining even more deeply my travels down life’s road and the mistakes I have made.
For now I will find a quiet place
and continue to pray for those that I have been,
because after all……….
all we have in life is hope and prayer.